I'm flirting with suicide since I was teen I had it all worked out as soon as my youngest son was 17 I'd would end my life becouse I felt so despared and unhappy for as long as I could remember but my kids first. But then before my son became 17 he was 9 I'd met the man of my dreams my soulmate the greatest love i've ever felt and for the first time in my life I feld happy and good enough to be on this planet worthy of living and even dreamed of getting old with him. Well 3years 3months and21days ago he left me just like that no warning no excuses no talking anymore gone and my happy feelings gone with him my suicidal thougts are so much bigger than before I've tried several atempts been admited in a psychriatical hospital have 3 years of therapy but I'm not depressed I'm sad and unhappy and life is a waiste the last 3 years I've lost 8 people from my family and with every cremation I felt a jelousy I wanted to be in that chast I wanted to die not them they had so much to live for some struggeled so long to stay alive and I want to die but am still alive it's so unfair. I'm desparatley searching for a humanitary way out no train no high building no highway accident just a pleasant way to die in all peace and tranquility so iof there's someone out there that know how please tell me. Notification: sorry for my bad spelling and grammar I'm from holland so my english is not to good and my profile is incorrect I'm 50 years old not 12
I'll flirt with suicide sometimes kill the pain
Posted - 04/05/2007 : 06:18:34
