I attempted suicide a little more than 6 months ago in January. I overdosed on lithium. When I've contemplated suicide in the past, I thought that having my stomach pumped would cure me of suicidal thoughts, but it didn't. If I ever try it again, I will make sure that I am alone in the house. I can't overdose right now because my meds are locked away in a toolbox. But I could cut myself, and that's probably what I would do. Right now I don't want to kill myself, though I think about it every day. But my physical health is so bad that I have absolutely no quality of life. I don't think it's fair, really, that I have to stay alive for the sake of others. I shouldn't have to live like this if I don't want to. People should understand that when you're an invalid, incapable of taking care of yourself, that life isn't the best option. I am a burden. I am useless. I am worthless.
Meadhbh (Mave)
There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face. ~Ben Williams
I really do understand how you feel. It is familiar words that you speak. However, have you ever thought that there is more of a purpose for your life than just to be there for others?
I ask because I have to find reasons to exist too.
You have a friend here..do you feel like sharing more??
Suicidal Thoughts Still
Posted - 06/25/2012 : 19:51:04
