Im new here its my first time ever doing anything like this so bear with me.I have been fighting this my whole life, been on and off meds and have had the odd period of feeling like i had beaten it at last and finally knew it well enough to cope with it, but nooo im tired of fighting and have all but switched off, i dont look after myself properly and i live alone which makes that part easy to hide and when i do go out "only when i absolutely have to", i don the classic mask which allows me to get from a -b and back without much trouble. I could write loads about things i havnt spoken to anybody about but that will do for starters.Thanks for taking the time to read
I feel a lot like you. Looking back at my life, I can't remember a time I didn't with I was dead. Actually thought about suicide a few times. Nowadays I just find it hard to care about anything. I can't find a job, I don't any friends (apart from one or two on the internet). This is partly because of my hearing problems. I can't handle social situations because I can't understand what people are saying. But more than that, I have absolutely ZERO self-confidence anymore. I feel useless. Nothing I try ever works out.
numb!
Posted - 12/05/2012 : 08:14:06
