sucks, my doctor here finally convinced me i am pretending or hallucinating a relationship inside me. first it was my friend josh and then it was god. my doctor said no and now i feel like a freak for making it up and especially lonely and i feel like without my relationship inside me, i can't seem to find meaning for myself. knowing it isn't real has thrown me into a depression, lonliness, i don't know how to validate myself on my own without a friend inside to do it. ugh.
i miss my pretend world the doctors ruined it
Posted - 10/11/2010 : 11:30:56
