hey people im new to the forums and i need some advice on what actions to take but i'll start with my story and i'll try to keep it brief for you
through msot of my life i was a happy individual with some confidence not alot but not little enough to keep me happy and it seemed to work for me and helped make my life complete.
but around 2 years ago a huge event in my life took place and to be honest it completely broke me.i was in love with this girl and she literally completed my life and was everything i ever wanted in a girl. i know the sayings of theres more fish in the sea and that its not the end of the world. but its the end of my world. ever since it took place that confidence i had, that happiness i had has been snatched away and has never been seen again. at first i was very tearful, whilest at work i would sometimes be overcome with this feeling like i wanted to breakdown and cry but i had to fight it i couldnt allow that to happen in the work place so i would fight that every time until i got home and then i would cry for about half an hour which afterwards left me feeling pretty numb for a few hours
with feeling like that at work and it keeping me up all night i decided i had to quit my job as it was so hard just to find the willpower to get my self there. luckily i live at home so money isnt needed for me. as time went on i continued to feel so low, lost, empty, scared and yes suicidal all i would think about is how to escape, how i couldnt go on but i kept my pain buried and just continued with my life the best i could.
after about a year the pain did ease a little i dont want to kill my self but at the same time i dont want to be here i dont get upset very easily anymore but maybe one a month i will cry about what happened. theres no dought in my mind that what happened is always on my mind and im always thinking of her. i try so hard to fight the way i am but it over comes me so easily and its dominating my life.
i need advice on how to go back to being happy how to be the person that could deal with everything without falling like this. how not to remember this girl so i can not feel like im worthless or not good enough for the world.
Welcome to MT Sean! I don't have any specific advice regarding the hurt you feel or felt. And I think we're all different in regards to pain and suffering, I have had so much in my life and it doesn't look to change anytime soon for me. But know that this is a caring, safe place for you to talk about it. I do know that getting it out of yourself is important. Therapy can be very helpful. I struggle with self worth issues and I am now middle aged.
sean2k10 any break up is like a death you will go through all the stages of grief I know it is a hard thing to get over took me a couple of years to get over my divorce went to day hospital for two years really helped me get over it and to stop using have been at my job for fourteen yeas now and have made progress You have made a big step by coming to MT the people you will meet are a great group who will help.
Sean, I really feel for you. I know how some breakups literally break you and it's hard to put the pieces back together. Time heals all wounds as they say which is partially true but sometimes we need a bit of help to speed things along. You could consider speaking with a therapist about this to help you work through some of your feelings about her. Additionally, it sounds like you have gone from sadness into a depression (but I'm not doctor and you'd really need to speak to a professional about this). If that's the case then there may be medications that would be of help to you, you'd have to speak with a doctor about that. Take care, I hope you are soon on the path to wellness.
i need help
Posted - 04/15/2010 : 08:31:31
