First and only post. Guess there are not many on here, but it does not matter. Perhaps it was one last attempt at another solution, but that was a reach anyway. Its been a long road, probably should have checked out years ago. Now its just more complicated to leave others behind. Nonetheless, my instinct cannot be wrong, I am 44 and have wanted to do this since I was 16. So foolish to not have as now it will be all the more difficult. Thought about a note for my daughter, but what would one even say? Too much to list. One last thought might be this, the systems of the world has more stacked against those who try to do the right thing. I am done playing their game. Take care