Hi! This is the first time I've posted anywhere regarding my illness although I have read forum before regarding ect. I'm in my late twenties and upon going off to college I became severely depressed to the point of sleeping nearly 16 hours a day, unable to have the energy to even hold a conversation, get a long with anyone etc...a completely different person than I was several months before. Well years have gone by and after trying to snap myself out of that funk I only made things worse and resulting in hospitalisation on numerous occasions. I've been on more than 30 different medications over the years and things feel quite hopeless. I do currently work but feel empty headed, have no energy and just feel as if I'm waking up to a nightmare everyday. I had TMS which provided no relief and have begged my doctor to perform ect. Due to a breakdown years ago it is almost impossible to focus, read, and think clearly enough to perform tasks I could do even as a child. I've reached a point where I know I can not dig myself out of this hole that has been made deeper and deeper as the years have gone by. Would appreciate any feedback, what to expect and how anyone dealt with the days before or preparing for such a thing. I have a hard time these days recognizing who I am so I'm curois if all goes well if I would even remember the pain I've been dealing with or if I would be able to just finally wake up and move on. Thanks
ECT Soon
Posted - 03/10/2013 : 20:01:56
