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simone69
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 Posted - 09/12/2006 : 04:05:18
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Hello i'm Simone(69)I've used for the past 20 years and have no idea how to stop.I've done everything out there,although I had my favorites.I've been hospitalized,been to NA and even AA(although I don't drink)How do you stop-,what do you do,where do you go?Is this just in my genes-my father was a herion addict and heavy drinker.Sometimes I think I'm doomed!I don't use any where near what I used to just "chipping" but I feel so guilty about this and I know it does'nt help my bioplar1.Any suggestions?Thanks |
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| stigmastomper (inactive)
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Posted - 09/13/2006 : 11:01:27
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simone ,if you are addic.ted to a drug ,and are doing your best to get off it. then why should you be feeling guitly ? i worry about my nieces and others getting hooked on herion or crack.you could teach me alot of about issues pertainig to drugs . and maybe i'd actually find someting to say that would be useful to you .ididnt really party all that much. but having the disabilities i do and manic depression. well the manias are like a drug .and life is hard when the medication takes them away. my father died of alcholism ,he was never around my parents divorced when i was a baby and well im familiar with the feelings that someone whose high,or despondent feels .i am like a drug addict because i need the psychiatric drugs i take or i crash bad and am helpless without them. i know what it is to be stigmaticed,abandoned, to have my mom say she wishes she never had me, to be molested etc etc, i know what it means to try all my life every waking moment to fit in society and for it to hate me. etc etc does this qualify me to hasve a little understanding of some of the issues someone addicted to drugs feels . but i have avoided the drug culture.so the things you could tell me would help me to help others and myself . my ,my, my am i talkitive today or what lol.any time and in any way i can help you beat your addiction i will. till then remember its chemical dependency your a good person. herion if thats what your doing is extremly hard to quit ,no s--t right . mom used to work in a psychiatric hospital de-tox. i dont think its genetic in the sense that a particular drug will be sought after by you because your dad did it , of course enviromental factors do come in to the equasion. i dont recall your meds or if you had mental illness at the moment , but those things can drive people to seek an escape from hell ie deppression un happy home life etcetc. i will ask my friends how people kick herion, and my family has alot of nurses in it and 5 bondsman. so they ought to know something. and my brother is studying to be a minister so after he gets through with his studies i will ask him if he knows anything. you probably know everthing ive told you . dont give up, your part of my world now and i'd miss you. when it comes to meeting me in the chat room try,try,try again, im there alot. sorry about getting mellow dramatic. youve probably had enough of me for at least a year. so i will leave you alone now.im off to blog someone elses ears out .  heres some popcorn you must be hungry after expending all thast energy listening to all that.as for the way i beat the bad stuff i got help if gods a hullination he's one hullination i've got on speed dial lol;
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| stigmastomper (inactive)
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Posted - 09/13/2006 : 11:15:25
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| you should be proud of yourself that you have cut down the amount of drugs you take .i know that in the hospital they counsel you .then they medicate you to address any psychiatric issues you may have,and may give other medications to ease your withdrawl wich must be horrible if your on herion.and methadone? to help keep you off the drug. many people have kicked herion with medical help,and without.but more with medical assistance. |
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| simone69
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Posted - 09/13/2006 : 14:03:53
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Originally posted by simone69
Thank you stigey-for the wonderful post.No,I have'nt done herion in 10 years.I'm addicted to prescrition pills right now.My day can't exist without the pills-it's sad really.I don't know how to stop.I got off herion fine and methadone and ALOT of other drugs-but the pills really have me.I wake up and take pills,take them before I work,take them when I get home and before bed.I don't even get high anymore really.They're my security blanket-ya know.I'm just being weak....
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| stigmastomper (inactive)
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Posted - 09/14/2006 : 17:27:13
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oxycotin?i'm glad you were able top quit herion ,the odds of beating that arent very good. but alot has happened since mom worked at a state psychiatric facility in connecticut. what does chipping mean?
micheal64 is like or even better than a brother to me . he's a good man and might know have some ideas as to how you could quit.does the ritilin help you? not to be religious but have you thought about volunteering somewhere? i voluteered on the ambulance core where i live.and went to a christian church ,still go when i need to for the company. there are sites for learning disabled and adhd people, but we at this site are greedy and selfish we want to keep you here. because if word got out how great and wonderful a lady you are. the chat room weould be so full even i couldnt get a word in edge wise.lol |
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| stigmastomper (inactive)
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Posted - 02/25/2007 : 12:14:51
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hi simmone it has been quite some time since we have spoken are you still a member of my therapy? i hope that you are well. i'm sorry it has taken me this long to answer your post , i answer but dont usually get around to seeing if anyone has replied. i think you are the one exception. i really think your great hope all is well
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| Jeff 4
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Posted - 04/06/2007 : 18:43:20
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Hi Simone,
I probably don't know enough about your background to say this with any certainty, but it seems like you may need drugs in order to stymie the effects of your underlying mental disorder. I would imagine that you probably have substance-abuse behavioral problems that you otherwise wouldn't if you weren't using, but also that using is the only way you can find an outlet for relaxation.
I'm in a similar situation, where I've been on one drug or another (including alcohol) since around the age of 14, with no period of abstinence lasting more than a few uncomfortable weeks. The only things that have helped were working out, eating a better diet, and pursuing intellectual interests, as these activities generally boost the mood and make using less attractive, at least for awhile. Still, something in my moods will shift and I become terribly impulsive and at risk for using, and then succumb to the tempation, usually with fairly significant consequences. This cycle has been ongoing for several years.
I recently obtained good insurance and I'm planning to see a psychiatrist in the immediate future. I scored out pretty highly for bipolar disorder in some online tests, and didn't know before this that those meds could help control these cycles. I'm not sure it will work, but it's worth a shot.
I wish you all the best in finding a way to get clean, and it sounds like you are already aware of the problem, which is the first step toward the solution, even if it requires chemical intervention.
Good luck,
Jeff
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