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dman79
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 Posted - 08/21/2009 : 04:31:44
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hi all, just want to know if there are any bad experiences on here about anxiety????? has anyone actually gone crazy??? has anyone actually all of a sudden in life after being very normal all of a sudden got schizophrenia???? or has anyone actally fallin over when feeling dizzy from anxiety???? or has anyone actually lost there memory????? any stories please actual stories where these bad things you think are going to happen have ACTUALLY happened????? im changing my thought patterns and instead of asking why wy why im going to take my srength and help others with their problems i have come to the conclusion that i have had all these weird bad dreadfull feelings for near on 2 years now and not one of them syptoms of anxiety have actually hospitalised me or really hurt me the fear is hard but i will learn not to fear as much ..........................so any takers???????????
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| Fruitcup (inactive)
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Posted - 08/23/2009 : 15:32:36
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Hi Dman
I think we have talked before.
I have been hospitalized 4 times...
I have been a member here for nearly 2 years..
Even as though we come from many countries it does appear hospitalization is generally an option when you become a danger to yourself or others.
I hope your condition does not become this severe.
Are you on medication?
Best Wishes
Sue
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/23/2009 : 18:10:13
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hi fruitcup, I am ok i have had a real good eye opener in the past week i have been able to notice the thoughts that have been holding me in this anxiety fueled panic all the time now i have to work on changing them im looking forward to the battle..........so tell me hospital 4 times and what were the outcomes??????? why did you go to hospital? what was your complaint? and what came of it? what was your worst fear on your way to hospital? did that fear come true??
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| Fruitcup (inactive)
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Posted - 08/23/2009 : 18:53:58
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Hi Dman
Yes...if you can grab that thought that triggers you off and replace it with a positive more factual thought...
eg
after a close call with an oncoming gas tanker I could'nt pass one without nearly running off the road....Panic..
thought - we are going to crash
then I realised the truck driver did'nt want to crash with me so when I drove past I thought...he does'nt want to crash today and those anxiety attacks disappeared,
Hospitalization
Depression/Anxiety (suicidal)
Psychosis (suicidal)....yes I was mad.
Psychosis (suicidal)....to some one who did'nt love me I was mad.
Rage attacks (suicidal) yes I lost track of days....2 then 4 then off to hospital for a change of meds.
I was on antianxiety meds for 8 years.
Finally when they correctly diagnosed me they found I had temporal lobe dysrythmia....which effects heaps of things.I also have anxiety and major Depressive disorder.
My worst complaint in hospital was they had spys everywhere and were trying to kill me....told you I was mad..lol...no seriously in the public ward was fear that I would be raped.
My worst fear going to the hospital was they would never release me and when I saw they did shock treatment I was scared they would do that to me.
No, it did'nt come true...but it is nice to know that there is somewhere I can go where I am safe from myself and my family do not have the burden of dealing with my illness in extremes.
The outcome has been good since the last hospitalization.
Most times I function at a fairly high level....
other times I don't and even the youngest will know it is time for me to go take some ataivan PRN and go to my room...
hubby says it is my illness, not me.
I started off anxious...mixed in some alcohol etc and ended up psychotic.
Be kind to yourself and best wishes to your family.
Sue
PS a life lived in fear is half lived....
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/25/2009 : 04:08:30
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Hi Fruitcup, WOW thats pretty intense!!!! So there was no rape in the hospital....or no one was spying on you.....well thats a good sign i suppose because at least your not in any danger.......then again the fear that there is a danger is more intense then actually feeling it i reckon!!!!! So you are doing much better now????? I am not sure if you are actually MAD.........i mean you are in a state where you are not able to fight this alone with your own thoughts and coping mechanisms most probably because it was left undiagnosed for song long and you are at the point where this has become part of your life your thinking pattern and the way you express yourself. I know that there will be a point in everyones life when they are on the edge of this being something big or nothing at all my brother had anxiety he would have visions of himself dying not suicide but dying fatally, he had no heart pulpitations or any derealization or anything else just the feeling that something was wrong and bad and he was very scared and would run to get away from it like he was going mad he layed around the house sleeping on mattrasses in peoples rooms for about a year until he met his future wife they hit it off he found a love of music and never looked back the doctor he seen at the time was concerned for him and gave him Diazapan to which he knew was not for him he believes that this would alter his mind and he was scared to take it......and he never did. He lives a great life today but he knows what he felt was bad and he hopes never to feel it again. Me on the other hand i have had this weird nagging, fatigued, derealized, dizzy, sick tummy, headaches, ear pain, not sleeping, dread, and anxiety feeling for near on two years and i have not once taken meds not once.....i have riddin the bumps and put up with all this crap it has thrown at me armed with nothing more than a bottle of water and a forever shaking leg!!! I have been so busy focusing on what it is that makes me feel funny and not noticed that these weird feeling are only about 10% of the day happening the other 90% I forget that i was feeling fine and instead of focusing on the good feelings i get all day and normal days i have i dont take time to get strength from them i am to busy dwelling on the days that i am not feeling to good and this is anxiety!!!! I wish it would go away but when the going gets tough i will fight back i will not quit i have no reason to quit i would rather live life in pain and suffering in an anxiety state then throw it in early i will be in the ground one day and thats for definate so i may awell hang around to see if it goes away!! no use in throwing in towel just because i got a few blows landed on me in the first and second rounds.
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| WhiteWolf (inactive)
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Posted - 08/25/2009 : 21:50:40
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Heh I can almost see you bouncing off the walls. Then I think about your poor body running on overdrive. You really should find a way to lower your blood pressure before it kills you.
How many years of life do you think you have lost so far due to the strain your heart is constantly going through? I think I've lost at least 4 years. But you show a lot more symptoms than me. Blured vision, headaches, ringing sound in the ear, digestive problems, kidney pain.. You feel all that stuff often? |
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/26/2009 : 04:29:00
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Hi White Wolf, i am not sure if you are responding to me?????? but i dont have high blood pressure never have!!!!......I also am not bouncing of the walls.........and i dont have ringing in the ears!!!!.
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| Fruitcup (inactive)
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Posted - 08/26/2009 : 15:44:55
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Dman...
Are you Egyptian????
You seem to be in de nile...(denial)
Your Friend
Sue
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/27/2009 : 04:54:25
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why am i in denile fruitcup???? please explain further........ I hav not said i am bouncing of walls or that my blood pressure is high looool i am freaking out over stuff i think is happening to me but they are not it is just my anxiety telling me to freak out i have had regular dr's appointments and not once has my blood pressure ever been high as a matter a fact nothing has ever even been wrong just me thinking it is "anxiety" so please explain why am in denial if any person is in denial on here it would be all of us?????? we are denying that there is nothing wrong!!!!
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| Fruitcup (inactive)
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Posted - 08/27/2009 : 15:24:00
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Hi Dman
Sorry that was a little bit of mental health humour.....
You sound like you are really wound up...
I am glad your blood pressure is normal...
If you put a frog into water and gradually turn it up it will not hop out...it will stay in the pot until it boils to death...because it accomodates to the increased heat...gradually....just like we do stress.(From my uni days..lol..)
Sometimes it is easier to see these things in others.
I also know how stressful being a new parent...working...and having anxiety can be.
Your friend....
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/27/2009 : 16:46:55
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i was only asking whitewolf what he ment by what he said because it made reference on the topic we were speaking on however neither you or me said anything about high blood pressure!!! so i didnt know if he was on the right topic!!! i see exectly what i am feeling now i know this is just anxiety......and even when it is at its hardest to deal with you still end up alright even when you honestly believe your life and all thats in it will come crashing down and you have lost yourself you still end up alright this anxiety feeling to me now is harmless because i have for the first time regocnised that i am not dying or am not mental or going mental or going to forget myself or lose myself it is just a symptom of my anxiety and like i weather the symptoms of a cold or flu i will endure the symptoms of my anxiety because it will go away and i will find what is causing the anxiety because i have now managed to snap the habit part by doing the things i thought were causing me to feel this way i have hit this head on and i can now smell the things that used to make me anxious i can now talk about the things that made anxious i can now be anxious and not believe im dying or ask what is happening to me i understand this is just my anxiety trying tell me to deal with some of the issues that i have ran from my whole life....i have managed to live a full life doing alot of things from traveling to all kinds of fun stuff and nothing has changed am the same person i can still continue to have fun and travel and i will!!!! because i know that no matter how much time i spend pacing and feeling the anxiety symptoms i have a great loving family and a beautiful daugter and my life is peaches all i gotta do is find the cream and everything will be A O K!!!
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| WhiteWolf (inactive)
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Posted - 08/27/2009 : 19:56:46
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I have to admit.. If I knew you in person I would enjoy watching you freak out. Everything about you seems a little jumpy. I can't imagine my thought process being trashed like that. Is this some kind of ADHD? Do you ever calm down or have you always been like this?
I get panic attacks from time to time and what not but I also calm down and usually have peace. Just some situations put me on edge and make me nervous. My concerns are a little overboard but observing you actually makes me feel better. Not saying that to be mean. Just saying you do come across really high strung.
You seem wideopen all the time. It's like you just type out your thoughts in a random order as they come to you without thought of structure. Do you reread anything or type and go? I'm not being critical of you just curious if you notice these traits. Please though... for me.. make some paragraphs instead of one giant thing. Just hit enter twice every now and then so I can have brakes. I like reading your thoughts.
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/27/2009 : 21:39:24
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white wolf you should not be on here, i knew when you put those comments up that you were the type of person that likes getting on here and playing with peoples minds!!!! This forum is supposed to be calming and so we can talk and have general chat,....not so can give me a grammer lesson and make assumtions so absurd that you can see by the way i type and the things i type that i am high strung .....ahahaha you really need a reality check bozo.....you clown!!!
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| WhiteWolf (inactive)
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Posted - 08/30/2009 : 18:55:58
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Originally posted by dman79
white wolf you should not be on here, i knew when you put those comments up that you were the type of person that likes getting on here and playing with peoples minds!!!! This forum is supposed to be calming and so we can talk and have general chat,....not so can give me a grammer lesson and make assumtions so absurd that you can see by the way i type and the things i type that i am high strung .....ahahaha you really need a reality check bozo.....you clown!!!
the dman
I remember Bozo the clown. My favorite game he played was the one where he had like 6 pales and the kids would try to drop pingpong balls into the pales to win prizes. That was such an easy game!! I used to play the arcade version to collect tickets for prizes.
I assure you I'm not here to toy with you or at least that was not my original intention. However, you have confirmed some of what I have said. Maybe if you drink a few beers or look at what I have said while under the influence of a calming medication it may chafe your perception on what was stated.
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| dman79
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Posted - 08/31/2009 : 02:57:16
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your an idiot whitewolf!!!
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| docsharp
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Posted - 08/31/2009 : 09:35:36
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Hi dman79,
Personal attacks are not really the order of play here. As I see it WhiteWolf was making a cold (unemotional) comment on what he had observed from reading your posts. This is something that he seems quite good at and it is generally a good idea to get an opinion in that format, that is what specialists do, i.e. give unemotional responses. You have taken his comments the wrong way I am sure and if as he says you try to look upon them as unadversarial, you might actually get something out of them. I am trying not to be biased here, if someone told me from reading what I had written that I seem to be bouncing off the walls, I would analyze what I had said with the comments in mind and not immediately jump onto the defensive (which is an emotional type response and not usually going to be helpful to you). If you look back at some of WhiteWolf's post, yes he can come across a bit course at times and he does tend to screw with people that are dead set on doing something bad. When people respond emotionally they tend to wind people up.
You came to this group for a bit of help and support as I believe did most of us. Some share their experiences in order to help others in similar situations. Please try to view peoples responses from the light that they are trying to help, this can be difficult at times as most of us have our own problems/way that is not conducive to others, if you really can't take what someone is saying to you, simply press the ignore user button, as a last resort. Kindly refrain from making personal attacks like your other thread, even if someone seems to be doing it to you, it makes you sound worse than your own opinion of them.
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