I cannot stand this part:Being really maniac, knowing I need a lot of sleep BUT refusing to go to bed even for a brief nap. It's like I keep telling myself if I go to sleep I might 'miss out' on something like a chore, news story or whatever I mean need to know.
It's worse than physical torture. It's almost like I WANT to be more manic by not sleeping enough. Then I get paranoid from lack of sleep. I then waste my time doing things for no reason over and over like doing math problems, creating spreadsheets or trying to come up with some 'new' way of encoding messages.
If any of you know what I am talking about and know a way to solve these issues then please let me know. Even e-mail me if you want.
Oh yes been there, done that. You know you will crash eventually if you keep pushing yourself. Physically and metally we only have so much energy and it will eventually run out, like a car with no gas. then again it may not be too bad. Discovering ones limitations brings acceptance and a sense of peace, if you are willing to take the lesson. If you are like me, I have to learn the same lesson over and over till it sticks.
Knowing you're tired and still not sleeping.
Posted - 09/29/2008 : 04:32:35
