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Le Bun Bun
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 Posted - 05/01/2008 : 14:02:56
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Alright, so I just like found this place, and I wanted to ask peoples this. I am a schizo(sp) to, and peranoid, and depressed. According to my doctor, I may also be bipolar. But still, I feel fine. Sure, I have my bad days, and hear voice, and I cut myself, but none of it bothers me. Im friends with my voices, if that makes scense to anyone, and I cut because it feels good and because I like blood, not because I want to die or because Im sad. Yea, some people are seriously out to get me, but not everyone, just most of them. Does all that really make me so sick? I dont think Im sick, I dont think I need help, but everyone else says I do. I take meds to stop the voices, and they make me feel all floaty and almost like im high, but I hate taking them. I like to talk to myself in my head. But then, theres this one voice, that makes me freak out, hence te paranoid me. She tells me people are out to get me, and most of the time, shes right. I dont want help, but Idont know what to do anymore. Im only 16, so can I refuse to take my pills? I swear, I think Im actually losing my mind.
is is possible that maybe im just crazy? I get this feeling alot.
This sucking void feeling.
Where everything is alright, and then suddenly, it feels like the end of the world. This sucking, gripping feeling, where it feels like my heart is actually going to break and shatter and Im never going to be happy again. It mostly happens when Im with the guy I love. He does love me back, and so whenever we're having fun together, that feeling takes ahold of me, and I feeling like im sinking and drowning
is this normal for a crazy person?
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