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plasticsurgerydisazter
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Posted - 09/27/2007 : 21:33:23

I've always had a food obsession, and severe depression and low self esteem, so eating always made me feel better, until the food was in my belly of course. I used to smoke pot, and I would eat an enormous amount of food sometimes afterwards. I was getting pretty chubby, and one day I binged again and thought "well I could just throw it back up and not have to suffer the consequences." I started forcing myself to vomit and only did it every few weeks, when I had felt like I'd eaten too much. But it started getting worse. Two years later and I'm still doing it. Now, I'll eat until I can't fit anything else in my stomach. Then I'll throw it back up. I won't be hungry for a few hours, but then when the hunger comes, I think "okay I'll just eat a little bit" and then I start and can't stop. I'm hungry all the time now, even if I eat and don't throw up... I quit smoking weed thinking it would take my hunger away but no... it's like my body just always wants food. Some days I'll try not to eat, all day long, and then when I get home I'll binge and purge again. I always feel bloated, I'm always tired, my eyes are always dry. I feel like my muscles are weak even though I excersize soooo much. I never seem to lose any weight.. in fact I think I've gained weight. I went on the atkins diet and stopped binging and purging for two weeks, but still found that I couldn't lose any weight. I was taking in a lot of calories and still was hungry. I want to lose weight so bad. Just ten pounds. I've been exercising like a madwoman and nothing ever seems to happen. I don't know what to do. I am so hungry!! It's like I can't stop eating! Once I start, I just feel more hungry! I need some tips or something... I need to stop but I just don't know how. If I'm always hungry, then I binge eat, and when I eat too much, I just want to puke. I hate being fat, but it's not even helping so I don't know what to do.

Welcome to our community,

Unfortunately, from your post it appears you're entering the dangerous world of Bulimia. Please take time to read the information at:

http://www.mentalhealth.com/dis/p20-et02.html

Bulimia and anorexia nervosa often are associated with mood disorders (especially Bipolar I Disorder). Thus it is essential to seek professional help for the treatment of your underlying mood disorder as a means to better control your eating disorder.

Please keep our community informed as to your progress.

Phil Long M.D.
Administrator