I'm about to start my third year of college. When I was a freshman, I accidentally got into therapy. For the last two years, I have been seeing a graduate student, but he for whatever reasons, is not going to be able to see me anymore. He has set me up with a female graduate student and is planning on being in the first few sessions. I am having a hard time with this change. I know I am probably making a bigger deal out of it than it is, but I can't shake my feelings of abandoment and my anxiety over everything I have told him and having to start over. It feels so unfinished with him. I don't know whether to stop going to therapy for awhile, to try going somewhere new, or to give this a shot. The problem with going somewhere else is that in my current situation I don't have to pay, which is good seeing as how I'm in college and broke enough as it is, and my parents don't know I'm in therapy. I'm so confused, I don't know what to do. I can feel my anxiety threatening to suffocate me.
I can understand why you would find it difficult to change therapists after two years. As you said , you have to kind of start all over again. But since he will be there for the first few sessions, maybe he can fill the new person in on some of your story so you don't have to start right at the beginning and tell the whole thing again. My suggestion is to try this person your old therapist suggests since it's free. If you go anywhere else you'd still have to have a new person. Anxiety is a horrible feeling. Something you can get at health food stores that works for a lot of people is called Rescue Remedy. It's a natural remedy for anxiety. You just take 4 drops and it really helps. Hope you find the new therapist helpful.
Niney
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