Initially it made me feel fantastic (about two weeks after I started)almost to the point of mania. I was on 150mg at the time. I was crazy good, running around everywhere, working my ass off, feeling extremely positive etc etc
I came crashing down after a fortnight or so of feeling elation. I basically went back to the same state I was in when I was admitted to hospital, and felt extremely suicidal, scared and alone. I then had the Endep increased to 200mg by my psychiatrist.
I slowly got better and felt pretty good a week or so later. Endep has a calmative effect which I find very beneficial. My sleep has NEVER been better! Now I feel like **** again. Not suicidal or anything like that, but extremely tired.
I am so scared, because although I am not in crisis, I still don't really feel that great in general. I am functioning and coping ok with stress, I am still extremely amotivated and I'm not eating properly. I just dont know If I am exhausted from working too much, or if the Endep is not totally therapuetic. I am scared to think about that because I dont know how I will function if it is increased again.
I am so damn tired, not sure if its working too hard (I am doing 12 shifts in a row), stress or depressive symptoms. I just feel so confused and lost.
Don't frown. You never know who may be falling in love with your smile.
Sedation vs Stability
Posted - 12/18/2006 : 01:50:08
