About 3 months ago I started getting auditory hallucination. First they started out when I took too much of the Effexor to help with the stress I had been dealing with that formed after former house-mate along with three others who are still around from their personal feelings of me along with my self. When the voices started out there have been three all along first trying to convince me that I have a form of ESP and my thoughts have been broadcasting over the net and computers. During this time and still has been going on as of late. I can hear the voices over sounds from my foot steps also sounds from dogs barking, gun shots also train horns and would reproduce the same noises around me when I'm gone from the house. Each have a distinctive personality of their own. It's like a liveing dream world that's hard to form any logic too.
One point in the beginning they tried toying with me over religion as they marched in my head to pick one over meany others. The voices even pushed the fact not to ask them any questions and to just play the game also stateing it's not a game it's a test. They even poked and prodded me makeing buzzing noises in my head and makeing other odd sensations like cold sweets down my back and makeing me feel at times like I was floating. All along telling me not to listen to the voices as I tried my best not to listen to them they became even more persistent not giving me any choice .
They even tried to convince me they are ghosts that I still don't believe. They let me think of them being from space that I have ESP with nanites in my brain. Things got much easier but they still pushed me for a religion. When they talk to me they have a affect of makeing my head pound when there near by, not like a headache but like a shouting sensation. Still saying off an on it's a form of ESP also calling it ISP that I did not even know what the acronym was till I looked it up meaning the same thing. Pushing me to close the window in my mined stateing it's now a door.
During the time they would call a device from a different world under an acronym I can't recall, that could make my legs stiffen like I was carrying 90 LB's on my legs with out even caring anything on my back. They would also change my emotions as they poked and prodded me with out much of a reason or need to form a emotion for. They said they had formed a worm hole around me during this and no one could hear them how bad they got. They also made me chase my tail basically trying to confuse me. They pushed me telling me I did not belong here in this house, and to clean my room also to get out of here and never come back and also to note not to smoke tobacco any more. Telling i'm just a victim and it's not my fault. All I could do is be as stubborn about it still knowing what ever I did they would still push me around. I would throw my anger at them makeing it worse. Some times they would be nice saying they are my friends depending on what I do and the personality of the voices that is speaking to me would change being angry or nice. Telling me I'm good person or being dangerous to them or to my self or others. YES these are real voices that are in my head not from speaking people. They would even change the words around of speaking people or what's on the radio or TV makeing it harder to relax or socialize around others or being by my self.
it's been a week since I've lived at that place and so far the voices have stopped suddenly. I had some ****ed up roommates that enjoyed messing with my disorder.
Problems with Effexor OD
Posted - 09/06/2012 : 16:45:40
