Hello. I've suffered from severe depression since age 11 and although on max dosages of meds am still very depressed/suicidal. Some people in my life get mad at me for "being in one of my moods." I know people have memory problems after ECT, but what if it helped me feel a little better. I've accomplished little with my life because of the overwhelming sorrow. I'm a decent songwriter and wonder if the ECT could help.I only have one person to talk to and am sure this subject gets very old. I read Kitty Dukakis's book, Shock, and watched the DVD by the same name. Mostly, I'm just glad I found a forum where I can be honest. Thanks for listening.