Posted - 02/22/2011 : 02:57:57
| GAD sucks. It really, really does. Especially for a person like me. I love life, friends, good music, great food; all things that are highly available to me as a college student. These should be the best years of my life, and have been, but GAD has certainly been a major factor as well during my college career.
Having GAD in college is like complete hell. Your whole life you have worked up to this point, getting a degree and starting out on your own in the "real world". Papers. Parties. Parents. Everywhere you turn there's a stressor.
However, I have learned many ways to understand my GAD and help decrease the amount of anxiety I feel on a daily basis. But this is not to suggest that I consider myself at 100%. Recently, I've been noticing that how I've been running my social life is causing a huge strain on me physically. I have not been thinking through the true consequences of my actions, just doing as I please. I can see the inevitable problems stacking up, the awkward moments to come. But I can not seem to stop myself.
I think it's important to remember that even though you have GAD, sometimes you really just do cause yourself anxiety. When I do not notice this, I tend to let the anxiety overcome me rather than dealing with the situation at end and admitting that I messed up.
What do you do when you have caused your own anxiety, not your GAD/depression? How do you deal with it?
Even though I'm struggling, I find a really good method for me is that if it happens while I'm at home, I'll take a shower. Showering for me gives you something constructive to do, you can blast music as loud as you want, and makes you feel refreshed afterwards. Sometimes, I'll even forget what I was worrying about or came up with a solution while I was showering.
I wish I would have known that shooting water at myself was more effective than a 3 hour long text conversation with a man earlier last week, maybe I wouldn't have skipped class then. This is My So-Called Life...
--Throw your soul through every open door, Count your blessings to find what you look for--