Hello, guys please try not to be too brutal as this is hard enough to type publicly as it is :).
Anyone out there ever feel like death would fix everything? That's how I feel a lot of the time. The fact that I have no special talents is also a factor in how I feel. I tried to teach my self, and thought i was doing good until I see many musicians that have so much more talent than I and i just get so jealous.
Long story short, I lose interest in everything. I have tried teaching my self. Another thing is, I feel like a straight up loser and I just don't care, I hate this feeling but i just don't care, its strange really. I also barely care to help my self so posting this almost seemed pointless. I it is also depressing to see some people be so positive about life and they have both a job and go to school at the same time, and I sometimes wish I could do it, but again it just doesn't matter to me.
In essence I feel I have already given up and if it were not for my parents I would be living on the streets as one of those people who walks in front of cars at night drunk hoping to get hit. I sometimes just imagine my self slitting my own throat and think to my self, if i had the guts I would probably do it.
Thank you for reading. Sorry if this post fails just had to put this out there since I really don't like to talk to my friends or parents about this, kinda embarrassing. :)
I'd rather get hit by a big truck than cut my throat.. go with the wrists in the bathtub. I'm just kidding with you. Killing yourself is the last resort. You still have a lot of options.
So you're another no talent person who feels like they will never live up to.. whatever? Musician huh? We all advance at different paces. Comparing yourself to others is not going to help you. I've always been a naturally talented person who can do just about anything. I'm a winner. So let me tell you a secret. When you are a winner and really good at something you usually shift gears and try to do something else that you aren't so good at. So maybe you need to shift gears and find something else you are good at.
Stop worrying about how good everyone else is. No one is the best forever. Every winner ends up being beat by someone. So refocus your efforts. Try new things. Explore the world around you and you may find other things you are interested in.
Everyone advances at a different pace. Set yourself some reasonable short term goals and go with it.
I'm kinda glad I have an inflated sense of self worth or I might have ended up like one of you normal people. It must be hard to have such selfdoubt but you got to stop looking back in life and focus forward.
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Suicide thoughts
Posted - 08/04/2009 : 23:47:17
