I can honestly say I hate what I've become. I don't really have a sense of self. I haven't grown mentally and emotionally for many years now. My life is plagued with anxiety, and it's so physical to me. I don't what your anxiety manifests as but for me in addition to the hot cheeks, the anticipation of the impending reprecussion;my arms grow week, hands go limp with pain radiating down, my mouth get fixed in the same stupid polite smile. When people talk to me, I don't know how to answer them. I work as a cashier and it has been a month now. I am still scared to page someone to the front of the store for something. I still get my heartbeat wildly when I have to do a price check. If i take to too long to fold the clothes and they're watching me, my cheeks get hot. What kind of life is this? I want help. I need it so desperately. I don't have any friends. I also deal with being in a different country where it's hard for me to understand what people are saying to me quickly. I have to think about it. I have become increasingly infantile, wanting to cry in the middle of the day, feeling my body constrict in the hopelessness of ever even trying to connect with something that gives me some relief. Anybody have ways other than medication to help anxiety. Natural supplements etc?
Hi Clenched. If you're in a foreign country and can't speak the language do your best to communicate and make a friend or meet someone who will be helpful. You probably have a translation book, learn the most important things you need to say. Just living in a foreign country, wow, that's a huge thing to do! I try and avoid the situations that make my anxiety go way up, like going out at night. Some positive encouragement each morning maybe? Favorite bible verses, meditation. There's different teas that are calming. Is there an agency or church that speak the same language as you?
Drink some beer to chillax? Just 3-4 should do and it'll smooth you out so you aren't so bent out of shape. If you were antisocial you wouldn't have these problems but I guess you aren't.
If you really feel physically weak drink some creadrive from GNC. It's like a five hour power drink but it won't throw you out like an energy drink. Just gives you a natural boost, improves digestion and helps get you physically through the day.
Your problem seems to be a social one. Surely you live on a military base or something to that affect? Make friends.
Forever in a rut
Posted - 06/27/2009 : 08:30:49
