Whatever your aspirations are, don't give up. In 1998 my dream was to become a web designer. Although I had many interfering symptoms of bipolar, I still managed to get through an online web design college program (Selkirk College, Castlegar, BC). It took another two years of private study, but eventually I made it. Today I'm a web designer.
You can realize your dreams too. Ask God to help you, as He helped me and my family. Do you know how to pray? Ask God for help, believe that He can help you, believe that He will help you, and make sure you ask for something that is good,. Pray continuously, without losing hope. Things happen in God's time, not our time.