Recently the past year of my life has been the most rewarding but challenging of my life. It started off in May when I checked myself into a mental hospital after a failed suicide attempt. I tried to hang myself and overdose on pills.
Things were looking up in my life. I was with my girlfriend of three years. I got a well paying job and I'm young (25). But old demons never stay quiet. I took the first job I could get. I didn't want it but I felt pressured to make money. My girlfriend was there but she didn't know how to handle me. Slowly I was spiralling down a full mental breakdown. Crying for no reason, mood swings and overall a feeling of wothlessness.
I was diagnosed with Major depression and generalized anxiety. Actually high anxiety. I take klonopin and celexa. After everything was all said and done I lost my job, girlfriend and just about everything. My family was very supportive. They really came through for me!! I went on to work my high stress job of politics and then after the election proceeded to go to Mexico to get my teaching certification. All was well. I finally was doing my dream job. I was a teacher!!! I was offered a job in Ukraine and have been here for a few days. The past few days have been hell. My luggage was lost which had my medicine. and the jet lag is slowly burning through my body I can't sleep. What am I going to do??? Please any reccomendations. I should be fine once I get my medicine (but who knows how long that will be?)
I like teaching. I want to prove to myself, that I can hold a steady job. I came here for a challenge and my demons continue to haunt me. I don't speak the language and I don't know what there views on Mental Health are. I just sit and cry all day. Please advice is needed. I decided to quit drinking. I believe I am a borderline alcoholic as well. I have also been diagnosed with OCD. Please your support is needed!!!
St. John's Wort (Wort is German for plant, I have read) is an herbal remedy that, from personal experience, I can say works. You will have to take more than the recommended dose, like ten or more a day. If you find a choice, get actual leaves in a glycerin capsule. I'm sure you can get it over the internet as well, but I suppose buying locally would be the fastest.
As a former teacher, I recomend that you don't try too hard, as in to fix things all at once. Not only is it impossible, but it will reduce your stress greatly.