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shades_of_nadia
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Posted - 10/22/2008 : 03:37:18

For Maruska Tennesse Brzek (1986/02/13 - 2005/09/19)
When asked what animal she wanted to be, she said a bird,
but she was also afraid of being kept in a cage.
The dearest friend i ever had, she will always be my little bird.

LITTLE BIRD

My words are blocked and painful thoughts refuse to be translated.

A brilliant light that lived on this earth,

Grew dimmer gradually but suddenly, abruptly faded.

We are the ones left behind in the dark,

We were the ones too blind to see.

Our dreams for you will not become real,

Though mercifully, death has set you free.

You struggled and fought so hard for so long,

Just trying to find a place to belong.

Trying to cope with your personal affliction,

But never quite escaping the reality of addiction.

And memories rise up that make us laugh and cry,

Still we are the ones left with the rhetorical why.

We punish ourselves for not forcing you to heal,

All these events just seem strange and surreal.

Its hard to accept youre no longer there,

Even harder to admit that life is unfair.

But you were never meant for this world, you always felt caught.

Now fly, Little Bird, find the freedom you sought.

Fly away from this cruel world,

go and find your peace.

Our dearest memories of you,

in our broken hearts we keep.

LaurenLis
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Posted - 03/23/2010 : 23:44:31

Maruska, words cant describe how much i miss you, we became friends as children and i remember the last time i saw you in September 2005, i blew you a kiss and you blew me a kiss back and shot me a peace sign.. you were the best friend i ever had, i know you are in a better place, its just so hard some days i miss you so much,this life makes no sense...you will be in my heart and memories till the day we meet again,sweet beautiful angel, thank you for all the memories, from our sweet and innocent childhood (age4)... till the last time you spent the night at my house and i wiped away your tears(age 19),if i had known a week later you would pass i would of held on to you sweet lady,spend more time with you, i can still smell you and remember us giggling,laughing and chatting the hours away,oh what a wonderful person you were, you were always there for me, my heart feels like there is a gap that can never be filled, i know you in a better place,G-d picks all his most beautiful flowers first,you were one of a kind,i am yet to meet another lovely soul like yours,i feel so lonely without you on this earth,some days i feel like giving up this fight, but i am gonna try again for you my friend, here is to the 16 wonderful years of friendship i was lucky enough to be blessed with, i guess we wont be old and Grey together like we always use to say, so please watch over me, im really struggling and i think of you every single day. wow,they say time heals all, 5 years later and my heart still bleeds for you,your fight is over,i know you were suffering,wish i had done more, rest in peace angel person. i will never forget you and i will carry our happy memories in my heart forever!! Lauren

shades_of_nadia
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Posted - 03/24/2010 : 06:38:52

its good to run into someone who knew exactly how special this girl was:))

nice to meet you lauren:)

Iron ore may think itself senselessly tortured in the furnace, but as the tempered steel blade looks back, it knows better...

Rainbowfish
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Posted - 03/24/2010 : 14:00:52

Nadia! It is soooooooooo good to see you again!!!! I have missed you! How are you doing?

RAINBOWFISH

LaurenLis
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Posted - 03/25/2010 : 00:40:54

quote:
Originally posted by shades_of_nadia

its good to run into someone who knew exactly how special this girl was:))

nice to meet you lauren:)

Iron ore may think itself senselessly tortured in the furnace, but as the tempered steel blade looks back, it knows better...

Good to meet you to Nadia =)......she was amazing,im still struggling to get past it,but hey what can you do.... (tear rolls down cheeck)

shades_of_nadia
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Posted - 03/25/2010 : 02:55:20

lauren, u can mail me at this same name here (exactly underscores and all) at cowboy yell.com i dont like giving full email addy cos it can be googled.

5 years, has done nothing to fill that void. when i read your post, i had tears in my eyes, and knew that you knew maruska, she really was the most special person i ever met. u should be lucky you had years with her, i only had seven months, and still miss her to this day like i miss no one else. its good to encounter another person who understands.

if you need anyone to talk to im here..
u'll prob need my addy cos as rainbowfish said i havnt been here in quite some time,, lifes busy here..thanx rainbowfish..for at least noticing.its been interesting lately,, maybe i can even post about it at some stage.

Iron ore may think itself senselessly tortured in the furnace, but as the tempered steel blade looks back, it knows better...

LaurenLis
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Posted - 03/25/2010 : 06:14:24

Hi Nadia i tried to mail you,dont think i have it right. here is my email
laurenodette@gmail.com
looking forward to hearing from you

warblaster
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