I was always searching for my dad's approval and love and never getting it. He has since passed away and I have turned that need over to one of my brothers.He is also my boss at work so I see him everyday.I can't get this out of my head and want to have the good relationship with him like we did before this came into my brain. All I want is for someone to tell me I am ok just the way I am.
I'm the same way with my dad(s) (My parents are divorced and both remarried) and I'm like that with all the guys I date.
It's taken me a long time, but I'm getting a lot better on depending on myself.
It took a lot of looking in the mirror and saying "wow, you look great in this" and "hey, look what I accomplished today".
I hope you can find a way to be more self-assured.
Jody Waves of silver, waves of gold Are coming now to take me, To separate my body from my soul And Jesus leaves or takes me. Hopes of heaven, fears of hell And what's the chance I'll make it. When all my other plans have failed, And I've tried so hard to fake it.
Thanks Jody, It's getting so bad that I am thinking about seeking professional help.Along with knowing I should be on some kind of meds.Just have to find the guts to do it.
You'll notice much talk of medications and therapy around here...
and to be honest...
whether it be therapy or medication: It takes a LONG time to get as close to "correcting/fixing" the problem as you are going to get.
The proper dosage of medication does take a long time, but seeking approval doesn't have much to do with medication... that's all therapy.
And therapy... Well, my psychiatrist (pill doctor) actually said to me: "I'm not saying that you shouldn't save up for college or anything, but going through the next 5 years of therapy would do you so much better than saving up for college."
And now, I'm not seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist (psychotherapist they are also known as.) I'm doing well on my own. But not everyone is as lucky as me.
My parents spent well over $1000 on my first mental hospital visit that lasted three days. The second one was much worse.
It's not cheap to get medical help, as I'm sure you know.
And there's no quick-fixes either. It's really unfortunate, but it can take months, years, even decades to fix problems.
And that's got to be the worst thing about having a mental disorder, to be honest... the fact that it's so hard to get help.
Jody Waves of silver, waves of gold Are coming now to take me, To separate my body from my soul And Jesus leaves or takes me. Hopes of heaven, fears of hell And what's the chance I'll make it. When all my other plans have failed, And I've tried so hard to fake it.
Approval
Posted - 10/11/2008 : 21:11:01
