Well I noticed that when I had a depressive episode I would usually have just a blank facial expression like nothing was going on in my head when in fact lots was running through my mind. The really affected me because there are times when I can be the life of the party and it makes it more noticable that I wasn't there emotionally. This caused lots of worry with family and friends.
I have come, to bring him back with me The whole world mourns his death! Please set Jr free Give him back his breath!
If it's true, what you say to me That the whole world mourns his death. If the whole world will weep I'll give him back his breath!
Dear Dr. Phil I have been *depressed* for years - At one point I was on medication (that I am now unable to afford). When I am depressed I can not register or gage the emotions of other people and as a result people accuse me of being void of emotion or uncaring. I also try not to allow my depression to overflow onto other people and have to lock down my emotions so that I don't act or react inappropriately. I try to avoid any situation that might require any emotional response. In the past when I have been in the state I have quit jobs (because I am terrified to go to work) even though I have my family depending on me to pay the bills and mortgage. Today I am so depressed I am willing to go into the office and resign on the spot, to hell with the damn house and the bills. I feel like a ton of bricks are stacked on my chest making it almost impossible to breathe. I am making my family miserable and I am unable to control it. I have a lot of people depending on me and nobody to depend on.
Hi Heidi, well for me depression /lack of showing emotion has varied over the years. I remember one time everyone was celebrating the new year and at the break of the years everyone was shouting screaming with joy. I was just my cool old self and I didn't see what the fuss was about. Don't get me wrong, i chip in and prepare for barbeque and invite friends and family around but get excited, never.
And then there is work. I never really thought myself as having low self esteem until I started this new job. Its an open office and we all do the same job. Having previously worked in my own office and pretty much alone, i found it very taxing most of the times. With the bickering that goes on, i kept to myself and let them get on with it. I thought that was just a way of protecting myself and didnt know it was a disorder. What happens now is that I just get on with the job and most of the times just stay there with my thoughts and don't bother to make any relatinships with my colleagues. I know now that my coolness is perceived as aloofness and lack of self confidence, or a social dysfunction. I also don't mind being on my own, I like to write you see, so time spent alone is very valuable to me. I probably need to change my job because I have noticed that when i am at work I suffer from IBS but dont experience it on weekend and evenings when I am not at work. Also i am a very sociable out of work, I feel more relaxed that I don't have to watch my back all the time.
Taking Remeron for my depression does not help my emotional expressiveness at all, as it is a side effect of the med. Add to that my German (keep your feelings bottled up at all times) upbringing and I'm not a whole lot of fun to be around. It takes real effort to put myself out there and be genuine of late. I will keep plugging on, however. I have a loving wife who needs me and I will consider her when I feel like clamming up.
Problems With Lack of Emotional Expression?
Posted - 02/16/2008 : 17:26:55
