I know that my pessimism and optimism alwasys depends on my mood at the time. I know I struggle with both, but when I am depressed, I am incredibly pessimistic.
It usually helps to have someone there to talk to me and remind me of good things and show me that there are people that care about me. It gets so much worse when I think that I'm alone and no one cares about me.
Jody In the moonlight Your face it glows Like a thousand diamonds I suppose And your hair flows like The ocean breeze Not a million fights Could make me hate you You’re invincible Yeah, It’s true It’s in your eyes Where I find peace
I suffer badly from pessimism, often about things that are global and political, like nuclear weapons, Global warming, oil and food prices and all those poor people going hungry
Inside me is the most optomistic little girl in the world. She keeps trying and trying to get better, even in the face of failed attempt after failed attempt, to get well.
I would not say I am pessimistic, I would say failure upon failure to become well has made me "realistic"...After all these Major Depressive Episodes, medication trials, therapy sessions, ECT, Outpatient groups and no extended periods of wellness for years, wouldn't any normal person be wondering if there was any hope?
i've been told that eeyore the donkey must be my patron saint and most times i feel that he would be too optomistic for me. i keep being disappointed every time i think things seem to be better and i have another episode or act out and can't control myself from doing stupid things, or i can't stop myself from overreacting to things that should not trigger me, and like aquamarie i see it as "reality" not "pessimism". i have no reason to hope that things will ever really get better. As i get older it seems the time between major incidents gets further and further apart, i guess i start to become optomistic in the hope that maybe every manic incident might be my last, and then when it happens again it hurts worse than it did when i was younger and just figured i'd be in the ER once in awhile and accepted it as part of being me. so maybe i'm just jaded and try to suppress any hope or optomism since i feel that is just setting myself up for more disappointment.
I guess what decribes me best is a defeatest, i dont look very far into the future as i dont know how i will be, i look at what i used to be able to achieve, i realize that was a different person i think the road has been closed . in accepting this i become a defeatest,life is tough at the moment
Open mindedness is often cofused with weakness of character. PK Shaw
Bipolar Depression and Pessimism
Posted - 10/21/2007 : 17:16:39
