Coitonly, Prior to paxil and or a mild tranq. I was fearful, DEPRESSED. Panicky, even snappy with loved ones. Since, a mild tranq and or Paxil, I am an out going fool ! I am now reconsidering the costs of being a chump/ A I tell too much of my business to the wrong people B I will 'do cart weels to be entertaining" C, I give far too much money to strangers and damned ciggs also. D I am not poised, and pulled together, in fact I feel like a kid I would like to rien myself in a bit more. and try to act my age. Especially around predator types. who can spot me a mile away. A great balancing act I want to try. I miss the old days when I wore a face that said don't mess with me.!
i have put up a wall so thick towards others because of my bipolar, i am convinced i am alone in this world in a reality that no one could ever handle or understand. i have experienced severe, scary hallucinations that prolonged for a year each time over the past 20 years. i have flash backs of them all the time knowing they are not real but they were so real at the time i am angry about it and well, letting go for me is what i'm working on...........
Do You Have Problems With Being Unfriendly?
Posted - 10/21/2007 : 17:12:04
