There is something that happened to me in the past and I am not sure if it was psychotic or not. I've looked at the deffinition of phychosis but I haven't found something clear about it. There was a period that I had a very agressive behavior against other people and espesially my mother. I was mainly verbally abusing them. Now, the point is, that althought I was generally very irritated at this point, I didn't do it out of anger. I didn't feel angry when I was saying these things to my mother. It was something different. I couldn't control what I was saying. at this very monument that I was doing it, I was trying to stop myself, but it was like I had no control on what I was doing. I was thinking "stop it, stop it" but I couldn't. It was like some evil power had control on what I was saying. But I knew that there was no such power. It was a feeling, not a belief. So, was it a kind of psychotic bevavior? I know that it is possible that someone can loose control of what they are doing when they are very angry. But what happened to me was very different. It was like my body (my mouth in this case) and not my mind had lost control on what I was doing. If you get angry and start beating your child, at this very monument that you are doing it you don't strangle to stop, do you? You might regret or try not to behave like that in general, but if you really try to stop at this very monument you can manage doing so, don't you?
Psychosis isn't aggression. I have been psychotic, and my experience wasn't that I had no control over my actions. I did have control, however my worldview and thinking were modified such that my actions became unusual.
Psychosis is a way in which thinking can be disordered. It can include delusions, although it is debateable what actually a delusion constitutes. I think it is a belief in non-rational modes of causation. This may be a too strong definition. The central character is a belief unsupported by evidence. However I believed that there was evidence for my delusional beliefs.
For instance I believed that names of people, or numbers of people or things in a group were significant. People's ancestry was also significant.
Yet in some cultures these are considered perfectly acceptable causative agents. I think the common thread is that you suddenly start believing in agents of causation which are not those you normally believe in.
It is sometimes the case that someone with paranoid delusions is aggressive, but the primary factor is fear rather than aggression.
.... I don' know. When I was manic, about 7 weeks ago, I was having auditory hallucinations and I felt like I was more important than others, but I don't know how to explain it. I felt like I was here for a special reason that no one knew about, only me. I kind of felt like I was going to save the world or something (THAT kind of important). lol Anyway, I suppose that was a delusion. I don't know about you though. Sorry.