Today is one of my bad days, I feel just hiding in my room under the covers and sleeping the whole day away. Work is hectic because my supervisor doesn’t believe depression is a real illness so because I stayed away from work yesterday he is basically treating me terribly. Don’t know how much more I can take and I cant leave cause its really hard to find work here in SA. I called my ex yesterday, don’t know why, it was stupid cause he was so mean to me. I guess that makes me feel even worse today. Im not on any medication cause my doctor wants me to take Wellbutrin, it’s a drug that I took before but I had a bad reaction to it and had a seizure at work, so now I am on anti-seizure medication for a month before I can take the antidepressant. Yesterday a friend told me I shouldn’t take life so seriously and I should smile and enjoy life. Right now that seems like the most difficult thing in the world to do.
Hello Jewel, It is very hard to let others understand your illness. Do you have some form of talk therapy? I know that talking and writing about your feelings gives a great relief.
I am seeing a psychologist and i am trying to find a support group in my area. Talking does help and that why i am glad i found this website cause it does help to a certain extent esp cause no one judges you.
Sorry to hear about how bad yesterday was. I know it is not easy to be depressed and have to get up and go to work. I have one of those jobs that you do not show up the first time you get a write up. The second, is disablanary action, the thrird in a few months and they demote you. After that they start looking to fire you. My bosses know that I have depression really bad, so they tead to look the other way every now and again.
I do not know how it is where you are but you might be worth looking into the the law a little. I know in the US we are sort of protected by the disablities act, but that does not stop them from harassing us, or even firing us and saying "I did not know".
Well I hope hat your days are getting better and if you every need someone to talk to my addy here is also my messenger and my email under yahoo.
Take care, and remember there is light out there, If you can not see it let me know that means that I need to change the bulb again....lol
A BAD DAY
Posted - 08/07/2007 : 22:06:07
